Sunday, March 11, 2012

I still miss you...but now when I think of you I smile!



Dear Uncle Todd,
I was having a moment of weakness tonight, where I stood there feeling a little tired, a little defeated, and worn out by the things of this world. And as I stood there, my eyes caught a glimpse of your sweatshirt folded up on the shelf. Something inside of me needed a hug from you and needed to feel your love and joy you always spread to those around you. So I picked it up, held it out in front of me so I could take a good look at it, then pulled it in close and squeezed it tight. I know it may sound crazy, but as I hug it, it still feels like I'm hugging you and you are wrapping your arms around me tight in a big bear hug, smiling down on me saying, "little Lindsi, my little Lindsi, everything is going to be okay. A warm rush of comfort comes over me and I get a big smile on my face as I think about you looking down on me from heaven. I still think about you all the time and miss you like crazy. Though the time has healed the pain, you will always be in my heart and every time I think of you, I no longer shed a tear but get a big smile on my face because of the memories and legacy you left behind. You had a huge heart and all you did was give to others; your time, your talents, your love. I love you Uncle Todd. Thank you for the love and comfort you bring me and the incredible memories I will carry with me forever!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

He makes all things new!



I have found myself tearing up a lot lately, but not because of sadness, but because I feel overwhelmed with love and blessings! God has cracked the shell of pride, insecurity, and imperfection on my heart and shown light through my brokenness to reveal His true and unconditional love. He has used the people in my life to display His character and take me by the hand to show me I am not alone. I thought I would be okay when I had everything together, when I felt somewhat perfect. But allowing others to see me in my brokenness is where I feel most like myself. I am real, I am me. Someone very dear to me once told me, 'No one expects you to be perfect, you just need to be you.' This not only erased all the pressure but it opened my eyes to a whole new perspective on how to live life!