Contentment...

I have always been a girl on the search for the next big thing, always planning, always trying to figure out all the little details in my life that would make me happy or make my life the picture perfect example of happiness. Well, I can say with a huge grin on my face and contentment in my heart, that I am no longer that girl. It has come as a bit of a shock to some because I very rarely know what I'm doing from one moment to the next these days, where as before I had every day chock full of 'fun and exciting' things. Now, however, I would rather lounge in pj's with my precious girls and do puzzles or paint pictures or just snuggle! They light up my life with SO much joy that I really could care less about what's going on in the world. Not because I'm lazy or because I'm self-centered, but merely because I'm learning to live in the moment. Things that I used to look forward to, I now loathe because it takes time away from me spending time with my girls. Not sure if it's my womanly-over emotional hormones speaking, but I look at their sweet faces and their big wondrous eyes and tears stream down my face. These little people standing (and crawling) before me, fill me with love and I sometimes wonder if I need them more than they need me. They complete my life and have taught me so much about compassion, love, and living in the moment. Sophia is at such a fun age right now and though a strong little girl, she has such a gentle and forgiving heart. She is filled with kindness and forgiveness. She is an amazing little person with such a wise soul!
And Peyton, well Peyton just has a zest for life! She is constantly smiling and goes at everything will full force! She has NO fear and picks up things after only seeing them done once. Now I know I am extremely biased, but I think I have two of the most precious little people ever created!!! The immense amount of love for the girls almost sometimes hurts because I never want them to feel pain. To have kids of your own, is to get a glimpse of what God did for us by sending His Son to die on the cross. What an incredibly amazing and loving gift. I feel so blessed to have a Heavenly Father that loves me that much! A warm house, good food, incredible family and love all around me...what more could this girl ask for:)